"Who am I?"
"What am I doing here?"
"why are there some things I like to do?"
"Why are there things that feel good to do but are addictive?"
"Why are there things that I absolutely don't want to do?"
"Why I do feel sadness, excitement, longing, desire, anger, jealousy?"
"Why do I hope?"
"Why do I fantasize?"
"Why do I hate my job?"
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The common man often thinks about these.
To him, it is often "exciting" to ponder on these questions.
To "chat" about them with other people.
To share and exchange thoughts about these questions.
It never, for a single moment, occurs to him why it is so.
Which, for the common man, is totally understandable!
He rarely questions that which fills the void. Which gives him something to latch on to.
For society has made sure to deeply implant in him certain thoughts and ideas ...
To always share, mix and mingle ...
To always "go with the flow".
To do what is best for him and the people around him.
To never question that which does not hurt.
And hence the widespread use of phrases such as ...
"If it ain't broke, don't fix it"
You see, phrases like that give one the license to ignore.... to not pay attention... to just be okay.
And I will ask anyone and everyone who quotes this too easily,
Are you sure something is not broken?
Are you actually awake to see the cracks in your "personality wall"?
Are you sincere enough to count the chinks in your armor? That which you so proudly flash around?
And, are you ready enough to start questioning? To challenge that which society labels "normal"?
No sir, you obviously are not.
Even if for a moment, your eyes your magically peeled opened, by some mysterious force of nature,
and you saw the things that are broken,
will you be able to "fix" it?
Do not worry, I will spare you the trouble in answering such an unusual question.
If, for a moment, you really saw what was actually broken in your life,
you will NOT be able to fix them.
You will, however, do one of the two things ...
You will either turn your face away the second you realize the graveness of the situation, distracting yourself with whatever or whoever you surround yourself with.
Or,
you will seek external counsel, looking for advice or "How-tos" to fix the problem.
Before you start "feeling bad" remembering all the times you've run away from your life problems in the past,
Or you start to wonder, what is "wrong" in seeking external counsel ...,
Let me tell you that no matter which of these you do,
they will lead you to exactly where you are.
For they are both long-winded roller-coasters that take you on an illusionary journey consisting of more pain with bouts of joy sprinkled here and there.
Both these routes have so many things in common that, to me, they are almost the same thing!
Both allow you to not shine the light on yourself.
Both make you "feel good" or "less burdened"
Both are a desperate attempt to turn and run away from the Truth!
And if it is not already clear, I will restate that taking either route would entail...
Staying exactly where you are and not really arriving anywhere.
Adding another layer of a mask further blinding you from seeing the who's and what's of your life.
Ignoring yet another clue out of the maze which is your life.
Missing yet another opportunity to learn why ...
"If it ain't broke, don't fix it"
is the lie you tell yourself,
Every. Single. Day.
Thank you.